here.

Man, I'm feeling really beaten at this point. I wish that I could seriously sum uup the way that I'm feeling. I suppose that the best way to sum it up is numb. But it's so much more than that. If I wasn't trying to hold it together for my wife, myself and my future child I'd burst into tears. Unfortunately, that's not really an option any more. 

It makes me think back to a time when life was alot simpler and truthfully, I don't want that any more. I love being married, I love the fact that I'm about to have a child, I just wish that it could've been easier. Truthfully, I feel like a failure, to put it bluntly. I usually tend to have faith in the fact that things will work out if you try. 

Well, I'm trying as hard as I fucking can and I'm about 3 steps away from working at burger king. As a younger person, this might've not depressed me as much as it does now. However, in a perfect world, this wouldn't be the case. 

Jersey, so far has been frought with a great deal of frustration. However, we're here, and there are some good things about it. But, I think that right now I'm just really depressed and I've got no one to blame and no where to look for solace. 

I wish that I could just go to sleep and wake up in a week.